Updating

It been awhile since i last post anything on my rusty old blog.  First and foremost Idraki’s condition have been improving alhamdulliah (read: thank god), now he is back to his normal active behaviour.  As for my health i seriously have the feeling i’m gonna give birth before my due date.  But hopefully not so early.  The husband got a new n better job nearer to our house.  N speaking of house, our application for applying the house is successful now i’m waiting for another letter from HDB. 

Now a days i always drag myself to work, when i’m at work all i is for 5.30pm to come faster.  I just dont have the feeling of coming to work.  There so many things to be done, but yet it not done.  At this stage i’m still carrying heavy files, doing packing of files to warehouse. How tiring can it be.  I’m so sick n tired of asking people to help me with the packing, i know everyone is busy with work, but some other time when you are NOT can’t you even lend a helping hand n help with the packing.  I’m not trying to be bossy here but we work in a team so we must help one another.  Don’t always think of YOURSELF!!!! Just because you are not the one doing the storing at that time, you dont have to pack rite.  If like that den i will hv to call back all the ex-staffs of Crawford to come n pack the files that they did is it?!?!?!?!?!  I have enuf say on this.  From now on i will do what i’m able n have the strength to do. 

I’m now just gonna wait for patiently for my maternity leave to start n have a good rest.

Inside me……

Lot of things have happened, for the past 2 weeks of January.  First and for most i would like to congrat my girlfriend siti on the arrival of her 2nd bundle of joy.  Her due date was suppose to be in February but she gave birth one month early.  Both mummy n baby are fine (alhamdulliah).  Idraki falls sick last week. He was down with a very high fever 39.3, I was on 2 days child care leave.  Monday i went back to work with a heavy heart, he was crying out for me, asking me not to go to work.  He even take my bag and want to keep in the room.  Sad rite. 

Back to work on Monday was indeed a bad choice, i shld have taken an extra 1 more day child care leave given to me by the doctor.  When i came back my place were full of tons and tons of works.  Few files to be open, closed and even updates.  I was kindda shock when i see this on my table.  Yes i know, other have a lot of things to do, but can’t my back up help me with the opening of files ?! Why have to wait till monday when i return back to work.  I wonder, why when people go on leave, or half day or sick leave, or urgent leave, i can cover their works, n can even help them as much as i can, but when it come to my turn people just dont BOTHER!!!!!!!.  I have no words to discribe all this.  WHY!!!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!.  I’m not taking leave for fun, if it not because of my son, i would have come to work, and i wont have bother my back up to do things for me.  For your info at the stage i’m in now, i can even do my own packing of files, MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!

How i missed the old staffs of Crawford.  I miss all the teamworks, the jokes, the laughter we had together.  Was telling the hub, last time, i used to be excited to come to work, but now i dread to come to work.  Frankly speaking i dont have the heart to work here anymore.  Maybe because of the people, the attitude, i dont know.  Now i can see that in the office we dont have anymore teamwork.  It like now, you do your own, i do my own.  There is no such thing as “HELPING ONE ANOTHER”. 

I think i will have to start to find a new job soon.  I know some people in the office is talking bad about me, talking about me, who always take leave, child care leave, and ppl dont since to be happy.  Well “I DONT GIVE A FUCK ” it my entitlement, why can’t i use it.  I dont take leave without valid reason, i hv to go for my every month appt.  And i took child care leave is because my son is SICK.  If he’s not sick WHY THE FUCK , shld i take leave rite.!?!?

There too many heartache in me, n i feeling like voimiting all out. 

A Good Start

We are already in the second week of the new year.  So far everything is good allhamdulliah, Idraki have very much settle down in sch.  Even though he will cry every morning went mum sent him to sch.  Once he enter the class his fine.  As for the lil bean in me, so far he/she have been doing well, was telling the husband this time round the lil bean is more obedient den during Idraki time.  He/She have been cooperating very well with me.  The only thing is i’m  easily tired, n i still do have the feeling of fainting but not so often lah.

In one more month time, my first born will turn 2.  How time flies n was telling the husband that we have about 4 more months to go before the arrival of our 2nd born.  I’m excited and at the same time nervous.  Ppl always say “what dere to be scared?” U have experience it before what.”  It true this is my second pregnancy but the feeling of giving birth is still the same like as though this is the first time.  All i can wish for, when the time come, everything is gonna be alright. 

Work wise, everything since ok.  I think someone notice the different in me, and that person came and asked me, why the sudden change?  I just smile and say “I’m still the same what”.  For now, my main motive to go to work is just do my work well, n i dont want to bother abt others work.  I decided to not make myself stress over work, n people who doesnt even bother to the their job.   I will not say anything when come to work.  I will not be bother whether you do you duty or not, or you are just plain lazy or what.  Just want to be myself n stress freee.

I think i better sign off, before i start to talk blog noneses.  Till den

A week have past……

Finally Friday is here.  I’m actually looking forward for Friday to come, so i can spent more time with Idraki.  My mum called today, saying that he cry when he reach sch.  Idraki doesnt want to walk, he insist my mum to carry him.  The teacher took him away from my mum.  Of coz he cry, for her.  Mum being a soft hearted person, she can bear to hear her grandson cry, cause i told her to inform the teacher not to let Idraki cried for more than 30min.  He can get “FIT”.  At about 9.30am, mum called saying that she nvr hear Idraki voice already.  So she decided to go home n come back again ard 10.15am.  At about 10.30am, mum called saying that the teacher came out and talk to her that Idraki is so much better then yesterday.  He did stop for a while.  But Idraki doesnt want to play with the toys.  But he does participate in music & movement though.

Once he come out from the classroom he open his arm, n hug my mum.  Was telling my mum, we gave him another 1 more week before i decide on anything.  My mum was telling one of the parent is not happy with the asst teacher, which i have to agree.  Hopefully Idraki able to adapt to his new routine soon. Till den

A New Year, A New Start

I know i have been ignoring my wordpress for quite a while.  It either i’m too tired to updates or i’m just lazy hehe.  I dont think my friends would still come n visit my wordpress, if there is still *i’m touched*.  Hope it nt too late to wish all of you a Happy 2010.  I left my 2009 with lots of happiness n saddness.  2009 have taught me to be more stronger n independent.  Well let not talk abt 2009, the past is history n today is my present.

In 2010, i have move to a more bigger stage in life, i decided to sent Idraki to a plygroup class, at a nearby RC near my house.  The first 2 days of sch i took leave just to sent him to school, he was ok at first, but when i leave the classroom he started to cry for me, which pain my heart just to see him cry out loud for me.  He have nvr been away from my eyes or even my parents eyes, so sending him to school was like a big challenge for me n him.  I cried upon hearing him cry in the class asking for me.  I told myself to be strong n firm, but i just can’t.  He is my heart, my breath, my eyes, my mouth, He is my EVERTYHING.  I told the husband, did i make the wrong step to send him to sch? mind you Idraki is not even 2 years old.  He is the youngest in class.  And today, when my mum called to say that the teachers, ask her to leave him in class, he cried.  N while my mum talking to me, i could here his crying, it really ache my heart so much tat i fell like crying too.  But i have to be strong. 

Was telling my mum, if he still can adapt to this situation, i will withdraw him first, i shall let him go for a weekend playgroup class where i can be ard n suit his age group.  The experience that my son n i is facing now, is so much different when i was a childcare teacher.  I was telling the husband, when i was a playgroup teacher in a childcare, we attend the childrens, talk to them, tell them that their mummies n daddies are waiting outside for them n all. But it different from the class Idraki is attending, the teachers dont since to be doing that, n i dont have the confident to leave my son there.   We will just have to see for this few weeks if things still doesnt improve, i will withdraw him. 

Oh well i’m starting to talk abt Idraki’s exprience in school rather then my new year resoluation.  This year will also be the year for my 2nd bundle of joy to come to the world, I can say i’m excitied, at the same time nervous.  People can say i have done it before, but the feeling is as though is your first time giving birth.  I hope the 2nd delivery will go smoothly just like the first.

I shall log off for now, i will try to updates my wordpress more often.

PISSED!!!!!

I’m not saying i’m being petty or what here, but if we work as a team we shld work together rite?!?!  I dont understand why when “YOU” are bz doing something which is not so important n you can ask ur adjuster to get me do the work, but when i needed help “YOU” dont since to be bother.  “YOU” would rather do ur own things which is not relevant to work at all.  URGH!!!!!

I JUST HATE WORKING HERE NOW!!!!!!!

E.X.C.I.T.E.D

I’m so excited.  Idraki’s been accepted to the school just opposite my block.  How GOOD is that.  After searching n searching for a right school with a good lesson plan we decided to enrol him to TalentPlus Playgroup.  His class will start from 9-11am.  So by the time i give birth my mum, wont be that bz.  My youngest sister can sent him to sch if  her classes start late n my mum can fetch him.  Even if it raining she doesnt have to worry cause from my flat to the school is sheltered.  Great rite, I can’t wait for the orientation next Monday at 7.30pm.  Will need to get his uniform + school bag n to pay for his material cost.

M.I.A

*ha ha Choo*

Boy oh boy look how dusty my blog is… It been almost 2 months since i last blog here.  Been bz with work n family.  Where do i start now, well like most of you my peeps who have known yes i’m pregnant *for the second time*.  This time my pregnant was away different den the first one.  Like most people say different pregnancy have different encounter.  This pregnant i been on MCs for almost like 1 month.  But i manage to pull through allamdullilah.  I’m now in my almost 16 weeks but i still do have the morning sickness especially when i take the train, i will feel like fainting.. U know some Singaporean is not so KIND you see. 

Now i just can’t wait to know the gender of our baby.  Some of my friends says it a Girl but the husband n my in laws says it another Boy.  But whatever it is i just want the baby to healthy n fine.  Next yr will be a challenging year for me.  I decided to sent Idraki for a half day class.  Reason for me to put him to toddler class is due to because but the time i give birth to his brother/sister i’m able to give my time between his brother/sister n him. 

So till den i will try to updates at my blog more often if i’m not lazy chaos.

 

Good Bye Ramadhan Welcome Syawal

1 more day to Syawal

That means Ramadhan is leaving, this year is the most memorable year, the year i will always remember n treasure.  This year will be our second year celebrating Syawal with our son, this year his gonna wear “baju kurung” is so can’t wait to see him in it.

I would like to wish all the my muslims friends

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI MOHON MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

August 2009

Today we enter to the new month of September.  I have about 18 more days to Hari Raya which mean i have 18 more days to fast before i can eat like nobody business (hehehe). But not so bad you know this yr fasting month i have lost abt 4-5kg (chet) hehehe.  Anyway the month of August have been the challenging month, in the middle month of August we sisters were down with high fever (38 -40 degrees) followed by idraki’s who ended up in A & E only to be suspected of having Dengue Fever.  Den followed by my father n the husband.  We were all under the weather for quite awhile.  Allhamdulliah  (read: thank God) we all manage to take good care of ourselves and we can still fast.  This month i been feeling a bit stress cause i have yet to come my menses.  ( for 2 months) i did a pregnancy test in the middle of august but the result was negative, till now i have yet to come my menses n that worry me.  What if i’m pregnant? cause when i got pregnant for the first time i have to do the test like 3 time just to confirn myself that i’m pregnant.  Was telling the husband abt it today morning n he asking me to seek the doctor.  Whaat worry me is what if i;m pregnant? Am i able to handle the two kids? Do you think it too early for Idraki to become Big Brother?  I dont even know myself.  Was telling the husband what if i’m pregnant, n he say good lah Allah (read:God) want to give us such a wonderful gift.  I dont know n i’m just worried.  Till the next update